Tuesday, 30 December 2008

Plans and Ponders.

I am incredibly happy that Christmas is now over. I love the build up, I love the day and I even love boxing day. But then its time to move on. I havent moved that far forward with my planning but I do have that feeling that we are getting back in to the swing.
My parents went home yesterday evening which I was more than glad about to say the least. I got the whole evening to myself and spent it charging up my new MP3 player. We took V's advice and got Creative ones for both the girls and me. I love mine, its a new Zen Mosaic in Pink - yes its actually Pink!!! At some point I need to put the music on but it looks straight forward enough.
Wii is big business in our house since Christmas and it has managed to incorporate itself into our morning routine when we all do Yoga together. Gets everyone moving and its hilarious watching Seb try it.
The Girls got some 'make and do' stuff: Bath Bombs, Soap Making, Kitchen Chemistry, for Christmas so this is going to be the basis of our Science for at least part of the coming year We began yesterday evening by making Abis first bath bomb and some soaps for Em.

I have started typing all my planning notes into the template I am using for our British History Curriculum, I decided to separate it all (Brit History/Alphabet Path/  Science) so that In future I wont feel bound to using all of the subjects together. There is still a lot to plan and figure out. I have decided to read at least the first D.I.R. book  with the children throughout the course and would ideally like to read them all - I have ordered them from my local library on Audio Cassette, thought listening would be good and save my voice because whilst the book is my favourite in all the world and I love it, it isnt especailly apt to being read aloud. I am seeking out how to get the audio cassettes turned into CDs because the cassettes themselve arent available to buy any more or are incredibly expensive and I dont have that kind of cash. I know of mechansims that exsist but have drawn a blank thus far.

I am determined to get Sonlight finished by (hopefully) May/June. Then I will do a 'bridging course' to fit between finishing Sonlight and starting our Brit History in September, the contents of which is yet to be determined - I am considering 'blocks' of subjects for a few weeks with experiments and games and manipulatives. OR maybe I will do THIS for that period of time- think the kids will love it esepcially if I read THIS at the same time.

I have been trying Firefox for the last couple of days. EVERYONE says its better and faster and more secure and so far I am inclined to agree with that synopsis. It seems to be working brilliantly. My blog looks better in this browser and websites in general seem to be neater and tidier.

I have started my knitting at last too :o) The wool  for my bag is rather fluffy to say the least and I will definitely need to line it somehow though I am not entirely sure of the 'hows' of this idea yet. Still I need to knit first and I have done 2 rows, only another xxxx rows to go (Im not actually counting, I plan to guess. ;) )
 

Sunday, 28 December 2008

Latest Music

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just
(trying to bend the truth)
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m

[Chorus:]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cause I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you is me)

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in
And now you think this person really is me and I’m
(Trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cause I'm

[Chorus:]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cause I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)
********************************************
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
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Saturday, 27 December 2008

Good, Bad and Ugly.

DH let me sleep in this morning which I really needed after feeling so ill last night. It was much appreciated and I felt loads better this morning though still a bit wobbly. I sipped (disgusting) peppermint tea all day and didnt eat until tea time by which time I was still a little queasy but much better.

After my late start, the day was spent in typical Stanbury fashion - I took the decorations down. No-one really understands it and its been a longstanding joke between us but for me 27th December feels like the end of Christmas. All that hype and effort and excitemnt culminating in two [hopefully]wonderful days and then its time to get up and move on to the next thing. By the 27th I am always more than happy to be done with celebrating. When my parents go home and things return to normal I will feel even happier, by the 27th they begin to really hit all my nerves as I tend to hit a heightened state of annoy-ability and restelssness at this same point. Goodness knows what it all means, its a mystery. I admit that this year has added stresses thrown in which make me feel worse but, come on, anybody whose parents asked "Did you manage to go? Was it a lot??" when you came out of the lavatory would be really eager for them to leave too, surely???

I spent a lovely hour or more on the phone with my friend swapping interesting tales and chatting about all manor of humorous and not so humorous things. I really to have the best friends with the wisest advice and I value that so much. It is nice to have friends that I can say anything too and who understand the driving forces in my crazy life. I felt more positive afterwards and it made me even more determined to continue pursuing my interests.


Seb had been such hard work again lately. Even nursery are now commenting on his defiance and misbehaviour. For whatever reason he has returned to monster-child status and the benefits of school are being regularly noted in in my head. He is so full of zeal and zest and wants to run and jump and not dawdle and not stop or talk or stand still or wait at roads. He wants to hide and play and laugh and have a constant compainion with him. But dh and I are mentally and physically exhausted. He wont sit up to eat at meal, he cries and rebels at every behavioural request. He just will not do as he is told. EVER!!!
Today at Tescos he kept running off, opened and ate some butter from the shelf, knocked over a bottle of shampoo that split and leaked and pulled clothes off rails. When we went to pay we took our eyes off him for less than a second and he was missing. I have never been quite so scared in my life as I was then but it turned out that he has been hiding in the trolley storage units and came out within a few minutes to surprise us. He was grinning, we were smacking and shouting. I cried my eyes out with relief but with frustration too at this horrible little boy who just wont behave- I didnt NOT sign up for this s**t !!! He is the one child able to put me off wanting more children, even Nathan didnt manage that and he was never an angel. The way I feel, if I were to give birth to a boy I would be devastated and I am not willing to take that chance. Not that the subject of babies has come up, dh tends to turn pale and change the subject at the mention of the B word, but I have been thinking lately how dire my life can be at times and I cant go through that again. (but I am still not ready for dh to have the chop- just in case...........)

WE have an impromptu sleepover going on this evening which isnt going so well. It was fine at first but the noise is getting crazy now and repeated warnings dont appear to be sinking in. Its difficult with teenagers, they want to have friends over and have a laugh but its not that easy when you still have little ones in the house.

Well bed beckons, need to sleep before my brain implodes. goodness knows what tomorrow will bring.

Friday, 26 December 2008

This Year

Christmas has been a lovely affair this year. The children werent too ott and after watching a film together I got Em in bed by 9, Abi by 10 and Nathan around 10.30. We didnt think we were ever going to get the kids to sleep and the last one(Nathan) finally settled down around 2am and Santa did his rounds shortly after. I chatted to D for a while online to pass the time.

Seb stirred at around 5am and Em woke at 6am but we managed to stay in bed until a quater to 8 on Christmas day for which I was incredibly grateful. This is the first year that Seb has really appreciated what Christmas is all about and it was lovely to see the expression on his face when he saw all the gifts 'Santa' had bought for him.

There were lots of presents for everyone and all were well thought out. Everybody had lovely things the main of which were; Nathan got a new DS, books, cricket set and hoodies, Abi got a watch, earings, DS games and mp3 player , Emma got Animal Hospital toys, mp3 player, passowrd journal and Kitchen Chemistry. They got other things too but these were the main things. I bought DH tools, a DS and games, and clothes. He got me a phone, mp3 player DS games and DVDs.

My sister generously provided our main present which was a Wii, Wii Fit, 8 Games and Dance Mat. We are very lucky that she spent that much on us. We had a late breakfast and then a buffet tea. My friend S came over in the evening with partner and bay M and we had a fantastic time. S got me a wonderful present - a musical snowglobe. I love all my presents but this means a lot to me as I have wanted one since I was a small child and she took the time to notice what I liked and got it for me. She is a good friend really even if we dont always see eye to eye. After a brief chat with Ruth on fb I collapsed in to bed, exhausted.


This morning there was lots of Wii-ing going on then a late lunch and dh took the girls and my dad to the cinema to see Bedtime Stories. Meanwhile Nathan played on the Wii some more and mum and I took Seb to the park. We had more leftovers for tea then vegged in front ot the TV only moving to take various children to bed. Unfortunately it seems to be my turn for the bug thats doing its rounds at our house and so I am feeling pretty crappy but hopefully its shortlived and I will be back to feeling fit tomorrow.
Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and got everything they wished for.

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

Christmas Wishes.

Yesterdayevening was dire beyond all imagining but today there is that Christmas feeling that quashes all ills and calms everyone who feels it. Thank God for Christmas-time.

I got up early to prepare the Nasigori then we had a last minute dash into town this morning for three presents that were a bit of an afterthought(and it wasnt busy- weird!!). We headed back and I made a banana fudge cheesecake, chocolate tart, chocolate truffles. This afternoon we did a jigsaw puzzle then I wrapped Grahams presents.

My parents had already hoovered and dettol-wiped the surfaces for me which saved me a job and Graham did the Christmas Eve meal. We decided to have the meal this evening which gives us more time on Christmas day to concentrate on family.

This evening there is nothing at all to do, how lovely is that. Instead I am spending the night conveying Christmas Wishes via text, telephone and email, catching up with the important people in my life.

Whatever you are doing and however you are doing it, I hope you all have a wonderful holiday.

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

The Final Countdown - Edited.

Im exhausted already and its not even Christmas yet,lol.

My most relaxing this week was when Graham was away. I talked to my new friend until late into the night(actually morning-1.30am : ), and also my friend Rob and I had a bit of a natter too. The next morning Seb came into bed with me and we had a lovely relaxing morning cuddling, watching TV and chatting together. >:D<
Graham got back with my parents around mid-morning and then Sunday afternoon was spent pottering around, doing not much before we watched the new Indiana Jones DVD. Graham didnt feel too well in the evening or overnight. I stayed clear of him so I didnt get the bug and ended up with a night on the sofa.
Yesterday I looked after Baby M, who is really not such a baby any more, then S and I went to Tesco and did the all important Christmas food Shop. I never usually leave it so late but the days somehow got away from us this year and suddenly it was nearly Christmas- weird! We got home around 4pm and the post had only just arrived. The children were pleased to find Christmas cards in the mail -thanks D :D Yesterday evening it was my mums turn to feel slightly off and so she was in bed by 7.15. S and I went to the cinema at 8 to watch Inkheart. This was a huge deal for me this time though as S asked me to pick her up. I dont drive and I especially dont drive in the dark, ever and never on my own. :-SS But you know, I did it!!!!
I drove there all by myself, took us cinema, dropped S home then drove myself home. Admittedly I nearly hyperventilated, had to talk to myself the whole way, prayed incredibly hard and probably looked like a big idiot. But I was really proud of myself when I did it:D/ The film was brilliant but of course was NOTHING like the book.
The evening ended on a sour note due to a computor blip leading to a discovery by DH. :-S I could have done without that conversation at this stage!!! Sometimes it can be hard to explain things and we are now in a difficult position.:((

This morning Graham took Seb to playgroup and my dad to fishing. When he got back G, mum and I got to work peeling and chopping onions for freezing. We got finished just as S arrived and she left Baby M with Graham whilst she and I went into town. It was meant to be a quick journey to use up our Iceland voucher and get Grahams present, it ended up being a lengthy stroll around town looking at alsorts of things. The Christmas market was on and everyone was selling their wares, there was music playing and people all around were humming to the tunes. It was rather lovely. S dropped us home and stayed a bit before she headed off to work. I kept M for the afternoon though she was no bother as she ate her lunch and went to sleep. Whilst she slept I made three dozen mince pies and help Seb make some 'creations' with the left over pastry, then I helped the girls with their lapbooks. Abi did a grand job, Emma needed constant supervision as she had no idea where to stick all the bits. 8-
I made a strawberry flan next and was just finishing when S arrived to get M. We had stuffed marrow for tea and I am now just about to go and make the base for the Chocolate Tart we are having for Christmas.

Tomorrow

  • nip to town and buy last present for Graham and presents for S and her boyf.
  • buy double cream
  • wrap Grahams presents
  • hoover and wipe over surfaces with dettol wipes.
  • make nasigori
  • finish chocolate tart
  • cook ham
  • take out food for Christmas breakfast
  • cook Christmas Eve meal (we eat our big meal on Christmas Eve)
Been thinking about all our troops and those in a war zone this Christmas. I dont believe in war but I have great respect for all those in those places at this time, away from family, friends and other loved ones. Praying hard for their safety at this time. I always liked this song. Its my dads favourite and is based on a true story from history.


Edit:
Forgot to say that the Melatonin we ordered arrived on Monday and we have had two perfect nights sleep from Emma. As V said, it could be just placebo effect and the success down to psychological means but frankly I dont care as long as she is getting decent amounts of sleep. May consider some for Nathan tomorrow night as Christmas Eve is never a good one. The other thing I forgot to add is I need to check out the church down the bottom of our street to see if it holds Midnight Mass or other service. I used to go every year and Its important to be but the last few years took their toll. This year I think its time.

Saturday, 20 December 2008

Tonight.

Im home all alone tonight and am at a bit of a loose end. DH has gone to fetch my parents and is staying there over night and heading back tomorrow. Seb went to bed at 7, Nathan popped downstairs briefly to loiter before deciding that Gremlins was too sappy for him and headed back upstairs and the girls were sent to bed before 7.30 for playing tag and screaming whilst I was getting Seb to bed so as I am said I am here all alone. I have been trying to blog all evening but I keep getting distracted by things like facebook, and emails popping into my inbox, and the telly.
How typical is it, I always bemoan the lack of space and peace and quiet and yet tonight when I have all those things what I really want is a glass of wine, a good friend and a long natter. Where is everyone tonight?!?!

Trying desperately to remember what I did on friday, ummm, oh yes thats it! I cleaned. I REALLY cleaned - all the upstairs even curtain poles and skirting boards. I damp-dusted all over, hoovered, mopped the bathroom, cleaned it thoroughly and DH painted the bathroom. (Its now white not magnolia. I really prefer white! The whole thing took all day, literally.) In the meanwhile the girls did some work on their lapbooks- it makes it sound like they chose too but thats not how it works in this house. Here I say 'Ok lets do the lapbooks' and they do, but had I said nothing they wouldnt have chosen too do it. I was pleased with how hard they worked; they did really well actually, even Em who isnt a fan of , well, anything.

I have been thinking about school for next year. I do like the plan I have but I still have Sonlight to get through first as I dont want to waste it. My new plan is to read all the books to both children(well not all of them, some I think I will not like much at all) I have a few that I wont - Abi will still read Window on the World to herself and probably a couple others and their Land Arts and Science are separate but I want to spend less time working our butts off and more time doing other things. So if I can get them working together I think it will be better. Then I will have 16 ( i think) weeks until I begin the new routine. Along the Alphabet Path will hopefully be complete then so I will feel more confident about using it - I hate to risk using unfinished curriculums, it kind of leaves the kids hanging.

I have my mind on other things too and on occasions, like tonight, things are crumbling round my ears. There have been some instances of loss of contact again and its bothering me. A lot!! And things here arent rosy at all. I am many things and it seems I cant be all of them at the same time. I cant say what I am trying to say and its frustrating.

Three Positives-
  • Making a new friend. I have struck up a rather basic friendship with a girl who was in my year at school. We often fill each others comments on facebook and have gradually talked more and more, exchanging mobile numbers and sending emails. All very nice. When she was in school she was part of the 'in' crowd and I was very much the nothing of the institution with nothing to offer. She and I never spoke and not sure how she ended up added to my friends list really. But now she is perfectly lovely(and probably always was) and its nice to chat in this way.
  • The prospect of the bed to myself this evening. No snoring, sweating, bed-cover hogging, no huffing cos the light is on and no feeling sea sick becuase dh turns over with so much gusto it feels like I am riding a tidal wave.
  • I am about ready to start two more things towards my 101 things in 1001 days project; I pinched an untouched cross stitch off my mum and I bought the wool for my bag (just need size 0 needles now **breaks into vacant confused expression**

Thursday, 18 December 2008

Grumbles and Good Stuff!!

Life with the Stanbury's is never dull thats for sure.
Wednesday morning I got up early - before 6am - thanks to Emma who has had a tummy ache every morning since Monday AND got me up every day that early. I got heaps of stuff printed out and made a serious headway towards getting the lapbook started, and recieved a phone call from a friend which was lovely. We headed into town mid morning to grab some random bits from Asda, post a Christmas card and get to the cinema to buy our tickets for White Christmas (which we managed to actually get this time) then headed home. Its probably just me but I felt that there was a lingering atmosphere between S and I remaining from the night befores ticket fiasco.
After lunch the girls and I made Christmas Biscuits during which I fielded a phonecall from school about Nathans behaviour again. Wont bore you with details but the gist was he hadnt behaved enough to go on a bowling trip or a cinema treat and could he not come in the last two days of school. Dispite what people will think, the school, the senco in particular, worked bloody hard to ensure he went on those trips- He was the one who threw it back in their faces. I am angry with him and hurt.
I got the last of the biscuits out of the oven, and dashed to my and Sebs asthma review. It was interesting that they said once he is four he can have many many more drugs to help him. I am not sure I like that thought but then I am not awfully partial to the bi-monthly pukefest we currently endure either. He has a new inhaler the equivalent dose of the four puffs he currently takes and a new medicine especially for allergic rhinis(sp) as opposed to just hayfever so it hay help. I have new inhalers too so hopefully we will both improve.
I got back and had a manic rushed tea then did more printing, some tidying up and generally stuff before S picked me up. We had a lovely night and I thoroughly enjoyed the film, sang all the songs and cried at the appropriate parts (soppy as ever). We were rather put out to be sitting behind someone who came in after us and then moaned to us to keep it down... when the credits were on. He persisted to huff and flap all night but couldnt pursude the lady with him to move seats so had to put up with us . Of course after him being so ridiculous we couldnt help but be noisy the whole time, cruel I know but he huffed when the whole cinema laughed at the funny bits for goodness sake, and scowled when I sneezed because of course I did that on purpose **rolls eyes** I still sensed a bit of an atmosphere between S and I but I dont know if its my imagination because nothing was said.

Today I felt annoyed with her again. The evening before she said that she was free 2.30-5.30 so I didnt call in the day, I texted her around 1.30  to aske her to let me know when she finished work so we could visit her. No reply. Finally got a text around 5.30 saying she would be home at 8pm by which time G was going out and I had kids to get to bed ("not all of us can be lax with our routines, crap with our timekeeping and not put our childrens needs first" - says carols mind cuttingly) I texted back a friendly text saying -sorry will catch you tomorrow. Did you have a good day?  I got a "not really" and when I said she could pop round after work if she wanted she didnt seem keen and around 9.30 texted that she was too tired.
My opinion is that she is annoyed we never come to her. This is an issue on many levels  but one of the many reasons is that by the time she gets her act rogether to see about doing stuff, we have already been up hours planned our day and got other things on and arent then going to change it all for her now shes been kind enough to finally decide. I really hope we dont come to blows over it all because I do like her. The old saying 'familiarity breeds contempt' seems to be true
On the other side of things today I felt there were a lot of good things. We headed out first thing bought Birthday presents for S(though see above for why we clearly shouldnt have bothered) from Wilko and The Present Company and returned a top to Peacocks. Next we headed out to see Seb in his Nativity play which was so sweet. We had him dressed up like a shepherd and he looked cute, playgroup had really done lots for him. The Nativity was during the middle of his session and he didnt want me to leave after that so I ended up staying for the rest of his session. I really enjoyed being in a preschool setting and looking after littlies, playing with playdoh, helping here and there. I really had a fab time and there were some lovely little kids there.
Graham picked Seb and I up at 1pm and we dashed home and had some lunch. Then I spent the afternoon icing biscuits with all the kids(even Nathan) and I iced my pumpkin cake. I love that I can cook and freeze the cake, and just it out to ice when we want it. The afternoon was a little hectic with me finishing the last lapbook bits and G taking Abi to the Dr about her toe. He finally prescribed her antibiotics (finally- this is the second time she has been back) and agreed that it is indeed infected. I hate that I most often know what the problem is before the DR does, as if I dont know my children. TonightGraham went out and I watched Wild Child with the girls, got them all to bed then I watched Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.

Only 7 sleeps left until Christmas, eek!!!

Tuesday, 16 December 2008

Time Flies.....

When I cry, afterwards I feel an immense heaviness and tiredness, my body feels drained and I am wiped out. Thats how I feel tonight but I havent cried. I think it is because my day didnt go to plan and I had a day of awkwardness and full headedness.

Got up at 6.30 this morning with the intention of finding and printing up lapbooking stuff for the Girls beofre Baby M arrived at 8am, That went wrong because I got downstairs, took one look at the mess and did laundry, folding, dishes etc - time got away from me too quickly and it was then time to get Nathan up, deal with Seb and breakfast etc and then get him to playgroup.
S didnt bring M until nearly 8.30- such is her timekeeping **grrrrr** and M hadnt had breakfast and had only been up 10mins. So instead of my planned quick dash to town I stayed in and fed the poor kid whilst G had the annoying job of having to go to town alone and choose what he hoped will be suitable presents. Once back the girls finally surfaced and Graham and I defrosted two of our freezers and repacked them. That was good as we now have beautifully organised freezers. By 10am the piano man came to tune and repair our piano. He did a good job and though it isnt on pitch it is in tone (not 100% sure of the difference but he assured me there IS one). He was here a long time and finally left at 11.40 . Five minutes later S, who should have been back by 10.30 but was late **of course, grrr**, got back from her lesson then stayed until 12.30.
She left and J who is the mum of Ems ex-friend came up to offload all her woes. She isnt exactly horrible, more 'taxing' and required lots of effort. I am not a snob and nor are my friends but she is so unrefined, brash and well, common, that I find it hard.

She finally left at 3.15 and I dived in the bath and relaxed for 1/2 hour before eating tea quickly and dashing out with S to try and buy cinema tickets. That didnt workout because we couldnt buy them in advance (didnt want them until tomorrow) so back home then I sat with Seb and did Ed City. Then I bathed him, tidied up, talked with the older kids. All are highly strung so had to handle that. DH and my day of bickering escalated in to a row and for about 10 minutes I was ready to leave and demanded divorce asap.
After the kids were in bed and we settled down I started to look through lapbook stuff and discovered that I had lost all motivation, sulked over another wasted day and huffed up to bed which is where I am now!
Positives:(this'll be hard.....)
  • Having a piano tuned and repaired at last
  • defrosting my two of freezers
  • I am in bed before midnight
Was going to say more but wont now, off to bed!!!

Crashed Out.

Emma finally crashed and burned in spectacular fashion today, just as I suspected she would. Her show went wonderfully but she has been having that series of mini meltdowns leading up to it, didnt get to sleep until 11, then I had to get her up to go to my mums yesterday at 8am and she didnt go to bed until 10.30. It was destined that today would be the day it all got too much. She woke feeling sick, was sick once and felt horrid all the way home. We got her in to bed and she was asleep within minutes, not waking until tea time. She had tea (6pm) then I put her back in bed at 8pm where she promptly fell asleep again. I am pleased actually that this didnt go on much longer, she was starting to look pretty ill.

We went to my parents over night as I just mentioned, and got to see my friend and give her and her girls their presents. I also got to see my auntie too- struck me how old shes looking :o(  I have been busy with sorting curriculum stuff and I was hoping to get a lapbook idea together in time for tomorrow but I failed miserably(my own fault) so I guess we wont be doing that now.

This evening I spent time time with emails then chatted to a friend online. I have known him 8 years and we get on really well but dont get to speak often. Made me all warm and fuzzy. Needed it as I am colder than I have been in a long time.

Three positves:

1. Got an invite to my sisters wedding. It was a bit out of the blue they went from "never getting married" to "grab a couple of witnesses" to  "white wedding, sit down meal and evening do"!
2.Finished Zelda and MahJong Quest (the reason my lapbook organising wasnt done)
3. Got all 5 loads of laundry done so there is only the bedding to do tomorrow(another three loads)

Saturday, 13 December 2008

The Wind Is Changing

Ooops, nearly went to bed without a blog post, that would never do, lol. Things are looking up here :o)

 
Did anyone else get that horrendous rain last night?!?! IT was so bad here there was localised flooding. In our town there is one road which dips along it that you just DO NOT go along in wet weather if you value your life. Someone didnt and got their van stuck in there and had to be rescued(glad it was a van, the last car that tried it was fully immersed!!!)The van is still there this evening apparently - so is the water.

 
Chaos has been the name for today. Got up with Seb at 7, did have a play with a few blog/list related bits so that I could get organised. Also had so many emails building up. Twelve actually, still only answered 7. We had to get Em to gym at 10 so that she could practice, then Abi there at 12, pick them up at 3pm, eat tea, faff with their hair and send them out again for 5pm for practice and then their gym show. They finally got home around 10.10.

 
During the day we still found time to help Em write all her cards, go to Wilkos shopping,deliver christmas cards, post ebay parcels, Graham cleaned the oven, I washed laundry and cooked.
Whilst Graham was out with the girls I put seb to bed, tidied, washed dishes and spent some time chatting to Nathan. It was nice, we watched Bones, drank bailey's (yes I let him have a little drink, better to let him have a small amount socially than have him being curious enough to go binge drinking with mates) and ate flapjacks together.

 
I spent the evening also attempting to find a Christmas lapbook, I found a few interesting ones in the end which I will try and get together IF I am not too knackered when we get back from mums.

 
Tomorrow, we are off there to stay overnight Sunday til Monday. We have a few people to visit whilst we are there.

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Finally here's my three things:
  • The girls had a great time at their show, performed their routines perfectly and loved it.
  • Nathan and I got some one to one time together and had a laugh and got on well.
  • I multi-tasked and kept busy all day. I felt it was very productive.

Something I wanted to share.

As a participant of NaNo WriMo I recieve regular newsletters from the guy in charge Chris Baty. This is the last newsletter of the 2008 series and for me, one of the most interesting and inspiring ones. I wanted to share it with all my friends.

Dear Novelist,

Wow. We had a feeling this year's NaNo was going to be big. We just didn't realize it would be this big.


NaNoWriMo 2008 not only marked our largest turnout ever, we also had the highest percentage of winners we've seen since the year 2000, when I knew almost all 140 participants personally. Please drop by our blog and help us puzzle out the whys of this year's winning ways (or celebrate it with a Winner's shirt from our store!). Whatever magical forces were afoot this year, we collectively managed to write 1.6 billion words, demolishing last year's count by nearly 500,000,000 words.


With so much fiction produced, you might mistake National Novel Writing Month for a novel writing event. But we actually have a sneaky secondary mission that extends beyond books...and into your job.


(If you're still in school, please print this email out, seal it in an envelope, and read it on your first day at work.)
Okay. Jobs. Having a job is one of the greatest, trickiest things you can do as an adult. Employment brings perks like challenges and growth and (sometimes) money. But the longer you work at a job, the easier it is to confuse what you are doing with what you can do.


This is true whether you're a dental hygienist, a stay-at-home parent, or Sirkka-Liisa Anttila, the Forestry Minister of Finland. Because careers tend to be all about specialization. Human beings, on the other hand, contain multitudes. Each of us has a wealth of talents spread broadly over domains both marketable and deliciously impractical. The tricky part is that we tend to develop the former at the expense of the latter. Passions become hobbies. Hobbies become something we swear we'll get back to when we have more time. Or when the kids are grown. Or when the stock market recovers.


Which means we leave unexplored many of those paths that ultimately make us feel most alive—the moments of creating, building, playing, and doing that lead to extraordinary and unexpected things.


Like writing a book.


Or, more loosely, postponing the must-dos of the real world to spend 30 days exploring an attractive, improbable dream.


Giving ourselves that time is so important. Because the world can wait. It's what the world does best, in fact. It was hanging out for 4.5 billion years before we arrived, and it'll be waiting around for another few billion after we're gone.


Our dreams, however, have much shorter shelf-lives.

If there's one thing I've learned from running NaNoWriMo, it's this: Whatever you think you are, you are more than that. You possess a fearsome array of skills and abilities, and the most satisfying of these may be completely unknown to you now. Your curiosity is a dependable guide; follow it. Put yourself in unfamiliar places. Kindle passions. Savor the raw joy of making things, and then remake the best of those things until they take someone's breath away. Wrestle bears.


Actually, skip the bear-wrestling.


But do keep trying big things, okay? Sometimes we can wait so long for a clear sign that it's time to begin, that the opportunity sails right past us.
Life is so short. Adventures beckon. Let's get packed and head out on a new one today.
I think it's time.

Chris
NaNoWriMo

I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

Friday, 12 December 2008

Positives

Three Positives for today then.....

  • I feel like I am coming out the other side of my horrible year and moving forward
  • Abi and I had a great time this evening playing Animal Crossing together - girly bonding
  • erm...... Seb let me put him to bed tonight and it was lovely to spend time with him.
Oooh that was a tough one.

Thursday, 11 December 2008

Something strange........ (edited)

This post has taken three days to write so applogies if it all bitty and very very long....


Today we woke up to another gorgeous frosty morning and it has been here the whole day. I cant remember how long its been since it was so cold that frost has hung around for days. However, our town is a little strange. Having lived to the east near the Dorset border, to the west towards Taunton, and in the center, we have discovered that it IS possible to experience different kinds of weather in the same place.
Take today for example; we took a drive to Asda (on the West of town) from our house which is East- its around 3 miles from right to left. So...at our house it is cold; the ground, grass, cars and roofs were all white, its slippery and its -3 degrees. Next, we take the roundabout near the hospital and head towards the more central part of town. Its still chillyon the ground at -1 degrees but there is little frost, hardly any on the rooftops and the roads are clear. By the time we reach Asda it fluctuating between 1 and 2 degrees, there's no frost on roofs and roads are clear.
In three miles we gained 5 degrees and thats not all, often it can be sunnier one part and rain in another, it is always colder in the east, but less rain. How weird is that!!!! Its always been this way, ask any of the elderly folk around here.
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There is everything and nothing going on at the minute with me feeling very busy yet the days dragging incredibly slowly. I spoke to a friend on the phone on Wednesday which was lovely. IT was great to have a moan and be understood and to feel connected. At that point I felt I had a handle on exerything. Unfortunately, my mood took a nose dive during the afternoon and by the evening there was irrational blubbing over random 'emotional-but-not-all-that-sad-scenes' in movies. I felt like I was losing my mind by bedtime and had talked myself into and out of a million & one senarios, held loads of insane imagined conversations and over analysed until my head hurt. I slept pretty well when my head hit the pillow though. I am sure there is a magic ingredient in crying that induces sleep.
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Today was mostly a good day. This morning DH allowed me a lie-in because, well, mainly because he got up with Seb, I mumbled i'd be there in a minute and that was the last thing I remember until 7.50 am when DH bought me a cuppa and told me he was off to take Seb to playgroup. Apparently once the first cuppa went cold on the side waiting for me, he realised Id dropped off again. Once up everything seemed to move slowly. We watched a Christmas film together whilst Abi Fimo'd and Emma played on Neopets. The girls are both very into Neopets again and also play PonyStars which is similar. After that we did some Animal Crossing together and we discovered it had snowed so all of us practiced making snowmen and all of us managed to get a perfect score. Next I got down out Christmas stories, as we do every year.

After that I finally got round to purchasing Melatonin from Biovea who sell them and other health products. I have been meaning too do it for a week but Emmas mood reached such a 'high'(not in a good way) that I did it there and then. I took the girls to see Madagasca 2 in the afternoon which was nice. S was meant to be coming with us too but in the end she let us down at the last minute(again) so we went alone. It was an ok film - I think the girls enjoyed it more than I did, its not my think but then it wasnt about me.
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Speaking of Emma, things here are reaching fever pitch. She is so charged with anxiety that she is hard to contain. Most people see Em when she is at her most 'normal', and the only things people may pick up on is that she stands a little too close, follows you around, and asks daft or obvious questions. When she is stressed she talks insessantly, and when she is upset/cross/frustrated her voice does this funny thing where she gets faster and higher pitched as she talks until she is sobbing or growling, unable to speak. Tonight it was over fimo, her model didnt co-operate and work out. I told her she had too much stalk for her flower, she of course wouldnt accept this was true and it ended up with her throwing a ball of Fimo at me in a rage and me sending her upstairs to which she stamped up, slammed the door and sobbed for over an hour. I meanwhile, took some stalk off, remodelled and it was fine when she finally returned down stairs. This happens about everything at the minute; meals, bedtimes, going out, getting dressed and probably a hundred other things I have forgotten about. Also she is saying lots of things she is wrong about at the minute and flips out totally if you correct her. I am mostly good at letting things go. However Abi and Nathan are not; constantly correcting her and telling her she is wrong until she is in a state. She isnt sleeping great over all either though after being in a state and crying she slept almost immediately tonight(see! magic ingredient in tears,lol).

The others are faring better. Nathan is not sleeping particularly well which is common for him at this time of year. He is also behaves worse at school but denies anything is wrong. That is because he doesnt know anything IS wrong!! Its all subconscious so everyone can see it bet him and its all low level aggreivation. This year he is finding it hard because he feels that Abi and probably Em too shouldnt believe in Santa at their age and so keeps telling them. I have managed to evade having to answer their questions, becuase luckily thay havent asked a simple yes or no question. Instead they have said things like "Nathan said santa isnt real"to which I simply reply "Oh right..." Simple :o) I am not going to ruin the charade for them, its for them to decided what to believe or not. I have never pished that santa thing, they have come to hear about it in the course of natuaral life and have never confirmed or denied it. I dont see why Nathan should have the right too either. Abi is the most ok of the lot. She just insists on relaying several times a day how many days it is until Christmas and how VERY VERY VERY excited she is. Seb gets up every day and says "Its Christmas" dashes down and is disappointed that there are no presents. Poor kid, lol.

We recieved some lovely Christmas cards - thanks R. I am astounded to discover that our post is now 6 hours later than usual. It came after four oclock every day this week - thats insane! How is it possible to have one day of no post on Sunday and suddenly be running that late!! Its a nightmare.
Tonight the air is STILL nippy, (-2 degrees according to the weather stats) and the ground is crispy. Seb had a birthday party tonight with one of his playgroup buddies. He had a fab time and it was so reassurring to know that he can go to places on his own and gets on so well with other kids. We had a fab time walking home a real picture book moment with DH, Seb and I all walking along the white shiny ground laughing together, really nice stuff.
When we got home Abi and Emma had finished their Fimo and made some lovely models.

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I have been working hard on the History curriculum for next year and have mapped out the readings for my three spine books. I just need to choose the readers/read alouds I want to include- there are so many. I need some advice on the best works of Shakespeare to read with the girls. I have several versions of several different stories but not sure whcih are the most fun to read- any opinions???
I have briefly looked at Living Math which I saw on Ruths website and am quite interested in it in theory. Not sure I want to do it but am very keen to look into it some more and see what its all about.
Seb has been very interested in a new programme on the telly called Super Why. Its good actually, teaches reading and letters - I always liked those sorts of programes. His letter recognition has improved hugely and I am really beginning to envisage him knowing all his letters by the time he is 4- 4 1/2 just by absorbing everything around him, osmosis- like.

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And finally........
I saw this challenge on Dawniys blog. She wrote "The challenge will be can I actually find 3 positives in a day?? Well I'll see how this goes, there was surpernanny programme on, she asked the parents to think of three positives every night and write them down. By the end of a week there'll be a whole 21 positives about your life/children . . . . by a month there'll be 93 positives . . . . and so your feel good factor has a big boost." Sounds like a brilliant idea though I dont know how well I'll do - Im not exactly queen of happy. But it could be fun and it will count towards no.18 of my 101 Things. So here goes....
  • Well that moment Graham, Seb and I shared as we walked home from the party was a positive.
  • I got all the christmas presents bought and wrapped and am ready for Christmas- so thats good.
  • The girls and I had a lovely girly day at the cinema even if it was almost cancelled.

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Please God...Dont Let Me Turn Out Like My Mother.

(A rant about mothers)

We are going to stay at my mums house at the weekend. Not really to see her but she is an easy place to stay. Well.. not really as she has only a small 2 bed house, but no one else will have us so we have no option but to stay there. Anyway, so I tell her the details a week ago; come early, visit DH parents en route, arrive 1ish. Stay overnight, see R at 10am Mon, then go home late aternoon. Sorry but you need to know this to see the point of this rant.

Today my mother calls me late morning and after dispensing irrelevant small talk she says "I was speaking to your sister and she couldnt see why you were coming because if you had come next week you could have taken us back with you. Of course I said "I dont bloody know why, I am sure they have a reason." Becuase I am sure you have a reason. She was just wondering why, because after all it costs you two lots of petrol and you could have saved money and took us back with you if it was next week. I said I didnt know and she said you were silly......" blah blah etc etc..... I go on to explain the part where actually I have friends to see who will be busy Christmas time so now is better. She acts like she will pass the message on to my sister.

I feel that something isnt quite right about her tone and her words - I have an idea about what is going on, I know her pretty well.

Later today I speak to my sister. She phones me to ask when I was coming down because she spoke to my mother after I had called and guess what..my mother had said she didnt know exactly when I would be down. Refer to paragraph two to see why this was a lie.

Next, full of suspicion now, I decide to ask my sister why she was so worried about my coming down and relayed the whole conversation that I had with my mum, to my sister who then, flabagasted, denied saying anything of the sort and went on to confirm my suspicions by explaining that Mum had said those things to her!!!!!

As I thought:
a) mum wants to know something but asks in a round about way, lying in the process and laying blame for her questions at someone elses feet
b) she lies about what she does know and what she has said to whom in order to manipulate people, to stir trouble maybe? and otherwise to be awkward.

Bloody woman!!! Why not just tell my sister what she knew? Why not ask why I would come down twice in two weeks?
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

There, I feel so much better now. Will be posting a shakespeare question soon, far more interesting.

Sunday, 7 December 2008

Morning and Evening

Morning has Broken - The veiw down our street at 8am this morning.
The gorgeous frost that filled our back garden this morning; really Christmasy.
And a close-up :o)
Then we got stuck into decorating the house. And two glasses of wine, a little stress and a bit of shouting later and here are the results:
The Living Room
Ooops, this is a it blurry!
The Hall
The Dining Room
It is traditional for me to always have a glass or two of wine whilst putting up decorations. It is also traditional for us to play Christmas songs, though I prefer the legends like Frank and Bing to sing my Christmas music, or even better- Christmas carols. After we'd finished we enjoyed beef casserole and watched Miracle on 34th Street - Christmas films are another tradition and finally traditional hot chocolate with marshmallows and cream. Im exhausted now :D

Saturday, 6 December 2008

Mixed Day

We got up at 9 Yesterday. Seb actually came in to us our room at around 8 am but he wanted to play on my DS so I let him loose on my Animal Crossing which he was really absorbed in.  I spent some time researching school stuff on the pc and then was commandered by Seb for the purpose of helping him on Starfall and Poisson Rouge. He recognises some letters now: M, G, E, A, S and D. I am impressed. Hasnt got word sounds down yet but he is getting there. We put a PC game on next: Blues Treasure hunt. Neither of us were very impressed with it though, bored us both,I am going to sell it. I finally eascaped and put on Christmas music -not the garish stuff but traditional Legends sing Christmas, lovely and mellow- and got my Christmas Cards all written out.
Seb sang Chtristmas songs all afternoon which was nice: "We wish you a merry Christmas" and "When santa got stuck up the chimney." - so cute.
After lunch I listened to Stereophonics and rediscovered a website I used to use but which I havent for a while. I used to use RHL School for language and math. Graham washed the widows for me; a long overdue job which I simply cannot do as well as he can. Then he listed some eBay stuff- need to make cash.
Cant believe how late it is and Em is still wondering the floors. I am a bit worried about her at the minute. She is working incredibly hard for the Gym club christmas show and doing extrordinary amount of hours. This week alone she was spent 24hrs there as opposed to her usual 10hours. She has a cold/chesty cough and isnt sleeping so is getting run down. Her mind is on the show and she is just constantly buzzing with it and cant wind down. She gets like when there is something on her mind. Add to that Christmas and you have one emotionally overstretched, sensory-sensitive, highly strung little lady. Its all part of the ASD and I am used to her reactions, it just means being a little more aware of her needs.
Tonight I have been working hard organising the British History stuff, got to the end of Queen Elizabeth I then called time as I was beginning to be numb from it all. I cant tell you how much I am going to miss Sonlight and how put out I am at being unable to keep using it. Still, I do like the plan I have and really hope I can pull it off.

Ooops.

Yesterday I spent FAR FAR FAR too long on the PC, wrapped up in music and blogging. I discovered new music though - thats always a good thing :o)

Today I must, must, must write Christmas cards. And begin the Christmas decoration thing. And start my new project. Well, maybe - I am considering leaving it until after Christmas.

(Lack of)money is stressful at the minute. We have none again. Trying not to lay blame but feeling cross. Trying not too though,

Friday, 5 December 2008

Everthings Changing...

Hope everyone likes the new blog colours. I really needed a change from drab and dull. I needed something energetic festive and bright, hence the new colours. Let me know if any are doing funny things.

Someone else took the words right out of my mouth. I have been feeling rather yukky since June, to varying degrees. But I have been rediscovering many things recently.
1) Friends
2) Music
3) Art
4) Books

Today was christmas food shopping day and though it was a tad stressful, the doing of it put me in a more festive mood and I 'felt' that festive feeling. Today, I have smiled a lot.

Thursday, 4 December 2008

Everyone should be doing it....

This has to be the nicest idea ever - Free Hugs. Credit to Bea for telling me about it.

Wednesday, 3 December 2008

Well......

Well my IBS is thankfully miles better now, I have followed my own get well remedies and as usual they are working. On the negative side (and you just knew there was going to be one, didnt you..) I have a cold. First time in a while and it turns out I am a woss when I am ill, lol; whinging to DH "I dont feel weeeeellllll" and lolling on the couch.I am truely pathetic. All my plans for the week have been cast to the wayside. I did get the girls to make their christmas cards ready to send yesterday and I have a meeting at the school tomorrow but otherwise, everything is cancelled.

I was going to write a proper post but I dont feel like it so bullet points it is:
  • Sebs school application forms have been submitted.
  • Abis psychologists questionaire has been sent.
  • We are so broke this week that we could only afford to buy bread, milk, eggs, marg and cheese. The only toiletries I bought was toothpaste, washing up liquid and toilet roll. I hate weeks like this.
  • I have been thinking that I love my friends. They really make my life worthwhile and I feel that I never had so many as I do now. I feel like I have a different friend for every different need that I have and that they are the ones who keep me out of depression and up within normal sanity range. I have had some meaningful conversations on the phone which have been a godsend too as I muddle through ongoing situations. But all my friends are lovely.
  • On the topic of ongoing situations, I am running hot and cold. Some days I am ok with it, today I am not, tomorrow..... who knows!!! I am finding it hard because I have been told to let it go and I cant. No, really. Its a connection that just wont cease to be. The ties that bind and all that. Doing whats 'right' is a huge difference to doing the best for me and my sanity. I guess you'd have to be there to get it. Some people have the ability to close a door, shut off a valve. However when I do that I become half myself. God I am rambling, must be the cold medication....
  • Nathan is excluded for putting a year 7 child in a dustbin becuase he called Nathan 'gay' - will my son never learn *sigh*
  • I finished Inkdeath. Its hard to read
  • I have been listening to music. Matt Nathanson. I like muchly!!
  • I am too confused and vague due to my cold to knit. It can wait.

That'll do for now. Didnt mean to come over whingy, cos I really only have a cold and will be fine. Everyone gets colds. And I am not miserable or depressed either. I am just ill. But it came over all wrong. Oh well.

Monday, 1 December 2008

IBS and Homeschool plans (long)

I'm not well. No, really.
I have the worst case of IBS I have had in nearly five years. Nowadays my IBS causes only mild cramps, the almost immediate need of the loo after eating (sorry for TMI ) and bloating. Pretty minor to live with my all accounts, if a little awkward when you are on a daytrip. But the weekend saw a return to the crippling symptoms I used to live with. I should have realised as I headed towards the constant heartburn and the lessening need for the loo (again, sorry for TMI ) but I didnt and it continued to get worse. Next were the cramps, so painful that all up my food pipe (know its name, cant spell it, didnt bother trying) was doing it and it got to the point it was forcing food out of my system and I was upchucking. I have indigestion and heartburn, aforementioned toilet issues, upchucking and THE most severe pain and cramping.
Because I didnt get it quick enough to sort out, this will probably last 3-5 days. It started sunday so usually, wednesday or thursday should see the end of it. All the drugs the doctors have prescribed me are, well, c**p really. I have tried them all. The store bought tablets - buscopan- are workable but only if used before meals and as reccomended and are no good at this point.
SO its back to old fashioned remedies to fix:-

1. peppermint and eucalyptus tea - its gopping, horrid stuff..... but it works.
2. prunes to activate bowels ( TMI again), but not too many!!!
3. 1-2 days of fasting, I fasted today and may tomorrow. It just means you arent stuffing unnecessary stuff in already blocked pipes.
4. No tea, coffee, or juice. Ice cold water is great and only drink milk for heartburn, can bung up blocked bowels further. (prepare for caffiene withdrawl headaches with icepack and paracetamol)
5 exercise gently
6 sleep propped up on pillows.

afterwards
1. avoid wheat(breads cakes and pasta), potatoes, meat and caffeine for about a week,
2. light meals only and re-introduce trigger foods slowly
3 keep up exercise.
4 begin taking buscopan, take for at least a month.

Obviously I will head to the Dr if things dont get better but as the pain has eased and toileting has resumed (TMI again, really, this is the last time - promise.) so this is all positive. In another 'falling-apart' related thing. I have a lump in my groin. I am not worried and know its a cyst type thing because it randomly burst a bit which was gross. But it hurts and I will need antibiotics if it doesnt heal itself.
Anyone else thinking I should have been shot at birth?!?

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I did something today that I shouldnt have done. In fact. Dont anyone do it. Ever. What did I do?......I looked at my blog archives for this time last year. Then I cried. A lot. (but I am ill so it could have been that)
Last year we were working brilliantly, I even said so. Everything was moving along, the girls were happily working and all was well with the world. Our homeschool experience was almost too full and we were busy. This year by contrast is like a barren land. Take today for example.

I had the aformentioned pain and discomfort which affected me all night so I didnt sleep great. I woke up before Seb stirred and could have got up and got started. But I didnt. I waited til Seb woke, then laid there waiting for DH to get up. Then finally got out of bed, threw on random loose clothing and plodded downstairs. Once down I had the opportunity to do stuff. But I didnt. I sat on the couch drinking peppermint tea under a blanket. I stayed there feeling tired and blah until S arrived. I had forgotten she was coming but exercise is good so Abi and I wrapped up and went with her in to town (Graham took Seb and Em to the soft play center). I spent a little money on choclate coins for the kids for Christmas, bought a cheap CD from Woolies for Abi and then came home. At that point I could have done something with Abi. But I didnt. I rang a friend and chatted for an hour then spent the afternoon asleep whilst DH took the kids to the homeschool gym club. Then there was trouble with Nathan at school(after me singing his praises only 2 hours earlier) so I took several phone calls from them, spoke to Nathan and sorted. Then I slept some more. Then it was tea and then I read Inkdeath. And then it was bedtimes and now here I am.

It is my fault. I dont have even the slightest interest in homeschooling. Em makes homeschooling hard. teaching two curriculums makes homeschooling hard. Winter makes homeschooling hard. Lack of cash makes homeschooling hard. I make homeschooling hard. Homeschool just isnt happening for us and I do have some inklings why but none of which I can do anything at all about.

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However, there have been some good things happening that I wanted to mention and some plans/notes.

There are four very exciting things happening in our homeschool.

Firstly is french which the girls began a few weeks ago but there are good reports from. It is run from the home of a H.E. family who we met when our girls did ballet together. ITs on a saturday for 45 minutes but we spend far longer there and there are other H.E. mums and schooly mums to talk too. We were there over 2 hours on Saturday. This is set to continue and I am pleased they are getting good reports.

The second is the homeschool gym club on a Monday 2-4 which is very new and in early stages. We have mentioned it to loads of local families so it is just a waiting game to see if it builds up.

The third and forth are due to begin after Christmas and are not set in stone yet but if they come off it will make me feel very content. The family who host the french are interested in doing Art and Music. So if things go to plan, on a Monday after gym they will come over and do an hour of Art at our house organised by me (eek!!) and on a Wednesday we would go to them and she would teach singing, piano and recorder.

This is a very exciting prospect and I have a good feeling about this. Not to mention that this way would cover PE , Art, Music and Modern Foreign Languages so I wouldnt have too. I could then stick to Math, English, Science and Social Sciences..... suits me down to the ground.

With regard to those subjects I have a plan:
My British History curriculum will be functioning by then and I have some fascinating books to read. Usborne book of British history and Our Island Story will be the spines and I will be 'embellishing' with many of the books I have and will include Usborne England sticker books. I also have an A to Z of Britian to use, once a week. This will also include Geography of the UK.

I plan to use Along The Alphabet Path for, erm, well it is kind of has multi-curricular usage.
The most obvious one is teaching the Alphabet and Language- maybe Seb will even take to it (Hmmm, thats a funny one Carol!!!). There will be copywork and assignments.
The second obvious one is Botany - the naming of and learning about the flowers, this includes the colouring of said flowers in accompanying colouring book and the listening-to of a CD which accompanies it all.
This leads itself to Nature Study which I aim to deliver via several CLP Nature Readers and a hoard of books about Nature and British wild life.
Then there is Art Appreciation, different to Art using Museum ABC, M is for Masterpiece, Story of Painting and Great Artists.
Next is RE using, to begin with Letters From Heaven to help understand Christian Faith, but to include religious festivals all year and to talk about other religions.
There is Domestic Science (cooking) thanks to recipes based on the letter of the week/fornight.
There are lists of read alouds and independant readers to cover Reading.

As well as R is for Rhyme to read for Poetry which teaches types and technicalities, I have several other poetry books to use with it.

Then there is M is for Melody which works towards Music Appreciation and the technicalities. I will use it along with Inside the Orchestra, Music of the Masters CDs and Classics For Kids, probably other stuff too.

General Science will be covered using Considering Gods Creation. Its Christian based but is highly scientifically accurate and most people would only quabble about the creation teaching in lesson one which can be left out.

Math will continue with Singapore Math. The girls love it and so do I so thats what we'll do. We will use Hands on once a week too.

Grammer will be taught to Emma and Abi using Simply Grammer, I before E except after C and Montessori Grammer strips and symbols.

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Seb needs a little considering but I think I have a couple ideas. I will probably do Letter of the week, Buy some Usborne Sticker books, Leave him at his nursery as long as possible and begin some letter/number matching. For Seb the rest will be play play play - VERY IMPORTANT.

It is full and busy and sounds great and even if i dont do it, I can still say. "I have a dream...." (too much Mamma Mia)