I categorically hate New Years Eve, I have to say. For the most part it is another excuse to drink to much, be too loud, kiss lots of people and let off far more fireworks than are really necessary, if ever fireworks were necessary at all. Yeah, I know, bah humbug! LOL
I just dont like it. What I also dont like is the fact that as you enter a new year, that's another year gone. Its hit me hardest with Nathan this year. It makes me sad that he isn't here for New Years Eve, and its silly because he drives me insane and often I like when he isn't here . He wasn't here last year either but this year he has been gone since 27th December and wont be back until the 2nd of January - he isn't one of those boys who thinks to call his Mama who misses him. Nope, he is a typical Aspie boy who is living his life without thinking of others - like all teenage boys really. I should be glad really because 5 years ago I couldn't see this moment at all. I couldn't see his independence, or his ability to catch buses, to stay away from his room(his 'safe place') or to be able to attend a smart attire only New Years Eve party. Im so proud of him, I really am. But I miss him.
Today whilst my grown up boy is off enjoying a party, Im a sad lady tucked up in bed, exhausted after nursing a sick Lucas for the last 48 hours. His cold isn't better, it seems worse in fact, and for the last two nights I've hardly slept and all he has wanted to do is breastfeed and sleep. All I want to do is sleep too, and I know I'll be asleep before the New Year reaches us. I am not even going to make resolutions this year as they are such a waste of time. This year I am just going to go with the flow because the flow is sweeping me along anyhow so I may as well just allow myself to enjoy the ride. That means no more neurotic planning and organising, at least for a little while.
My eyes are drooping and I need to sleep. All that remains to do is to wish everyone a Happy New Year, may this year be filled with happiness and may you be richly blessed.
Happy New Year to you too, and how wonderful to know that Nathan can handle it so well. I've printed this post out and added it to my collection of 'well, they've done it, so of course mine will...' to read when my doubts start breeding like rabbits so thanks for it.
ReplyDeleteHappy New year (you sad old lady you!!1) ;)
ReplyDeleteI hope this year is a really good one for you all.
A. xx
Happy New Year. I must admit the firework display at the back of us was spectacular this year. Well done to N too. I cannot imagine D every going anywhere on his own but no doubt it will come.
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